Thursday, November 27, 2014

Disappointment

This past weekend, I went to visit my mom with my family. I often do not know what to expect when I go there. My mom and my step dad seem to be more occupied with my weight then I am. They have even gone so far as to make comments and reasonings as to why I am overweight to my daughter.

While we are visiting the topic always comes up as to what I am doing to lose weight and how much I  now weigh. I get depressed just knowing that the topic will be brought up. It almost seems as if they think I am not aware of my weight issues.

I am doing all that I can to lose the weight. One of their comments always centre's around how much I eat. I often have to point out that I actually eat less then they do. They also see this as I use a small plate not your normal dinner plate. I also only have one helping while, they consume more.

I often go to bed feeling starved and resist the urge to eat more. I often feel as if the only thing my parents care about is me being overweight.

A bonus of sorts is that I did step on the scale and now know I weigh in at a grand total of 187.

Is this something to be proud of? Not at all. But it gives me a starting point and I   now can make further goals as to where I want to be.